Day 26 Gift Wrapping

This morning we woke up and said goodbye to Aunt Marcia. She was so upset she didn't get to meet you but I keep ensuring her that eventually she'll get the chance, it will just be more difficult with your schedule. I spent the remainder of the day watching the rest of the Harry Potter marathon (I recorded it) and I wrapped gifts. Lots of gifts, all day long. It was really nice to get out of the way!

Liam came home at three and Mom stopped by for a little while to visit. Life just feels so much better when Liam is finally home with me. That's the way it always should be!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 25 Harry Potter

This morning we headed over to Mom's for a breakfast that Billy had promised to make everyone. It was nice to get a chance to visit again. Kevin was picking Liam up with morning so it was obviously pretty hard on me. I stayed to chat for a little while and then headed home to watch a crazy marathon of Harry Potter. I may be a child at heart because I absolutely LOVE Harry Potter!

Later that night the whole family went to Cantina for dinner. It was absolutely wonderful, as usual except I learned a very important lesson. Apparently pregnant women shouldn't eat at Cantina. It was WAY too greasy and I spent the rest of the night in excruciating pain. I can't wait for you to come home and go out to dinner with me. I miss you so much babe!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 24 Thanksgiving

Today is Thanksgiving! We had a wonderful time and from the sounds of it, you did too! I made chocolate pudding pie, green bean casserole and pistachio pudding! Everything Mom made turned out GREAT! It really was a wonderful meal. My Uncle Brian came up with his granddaughter Ava and my Aunt Marcia was here too! She stayed with Liam and I. It's always nice when she visits, I am really quite close with her. I feel better knowing that although you're not with us on Thanksgiving at least you're eating well. VERY well!

We all missed you love and Aunt Marcia cannot wait to meet you! Come home soon!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 23 Stew with the Anglebergers

Tonight was dinner with your family! I ran to Walmart at lunch to do some quick shopping that I needed to do. They let us out early at 2:00 today with tomorrow being Thanksgiving and all! We drove to Colton and had the most delicious dinner. Your Momma made Beef Stew and Chili and both were completely wonderful!

I'm still not feeling that well and I have a feeling it's only going to get worse from here on out. I miss you so much hunny! I cannot wait for you to come home. I'm so thankful this Thanksgiving that you are home for our first Christmas together. I'd give up at least ten Thanksgivings for one Christmas! I cannot wait!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 22 Missing You

Tuesday was just a typical day at work and a typical night where we got to spend the night at home... cleaning, picking up, watching Mickey Mouse, doing laundry, dinner etc. As it gets closer to the time you'll be coming home I can't help but get VERY excited!!! I really miss you sweetie and I really haven't felt well lately. It will be nice to have to here to take care of me and help around the house. We both really miss you sweetie! SOOOOO much!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 21 Social Graces

 Liam was refusing to pose for pictures but I wouldn't take no for an answer, hehe.

Mondays Oh Mondays! Since Billy was home I decided to head to Mom's for lunch and hang out with him. Billy made me a grilled cheese sandwich and we sat in the living room to talk. Somehow the topic of condescension came up and we had a lengthy discussion on it. He warned me not to be condescending and to always listen to others' points of view. It was a rather heavy conversation for lunch time but it really got me thinking.

Sarah and I always talk about how difficult it is to remember not to talk over other people. I know it's something that should come naturally and easy to most people but it just doesn't for us. In our family either you talk loud or you never get a chance. It's just something I've become accustomed to. Not only am I conditioned to talk over people but I'm also extremely opinionated. I've tried at times not to be, but I just can't help it. I am. I seem to have an opinion about everything. Once I've rationalized my opinion I also have a hard time admitting that someone else's opinion is also just as logical. I am a very logical thinker, I struggle with the thought that there might be more than one right answer to a question, or the thought that one isn't MORE right than the other. Sometimes, I know there is more than one option, but not often.

Later, I went to Dad's for our Monday night dinner of Chicken Pot Pie which was great as usual! I can't wait for you to be home to enjoy Monday night dinner with us. I miss you baby!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 20 Bundle of Joy

Today was just a wonderful, typical Sunday with Liam. Liam and Mommy. Days with just the two of us are always special and fun. We clean a little, make more of a mess, cook food randomly, make even more of a mess. Watch Lifetime and Hallmark tv movies and play in the living room. I really love my time with Liam, I cannot wait for time with another little bundle of joy. Even if this next bundle turns out to be a hellion like our current bundle!

Sometimes I get a little worried about how Liam will react to the baby, but I think if we constantly remember to carve out special time with Liam he'll adjust just fine. I cannot wait for our full house! It will be so nice to always have a piece of you with me even when you're gone. I miss you so much baby!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 19 Hobble Gobble

Yay! Finally a Saturday! Today I ran to Nina's to drop Liam off with her and Uncle Billy to head out to the Hobble Gobble with Cassidy. We had a really great time, we jogged in the beginning and walked for most of the race. We were WAY off from our prediction, but the food was good, it was nice to get out and get some exercise and catch up with an old friend.

It was nice to be able to confide in someone and we were so cute, just two preggers, speed walking our way to the end. Afterward, I headed over to Mom's to hang out with Billy and catch up. I remember doing the same thing last year when I did the Hobble Gobble. I hope this is a new tradition I can carry on for the next few years. I hope sometime you're home to do the race with me as well. I think that would be fun to do together. I miss you so much lovey!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 18 A Weekend Getaway

Today has been such a long day! Today was my all day CPE class in Lake Placid. I had to drop Liam off at Mom's at 6:00am and off I was on my long drive. Class was boring as usual and my old employer was there which is always fun... not! This hotel is absolutely gorgeous! It has a huge indoor swimming pool as well. I would love to take Liam here, he would absolutely love it!

I finally got back home around 6:30 and tried to salvage whatever was left of my very long day! I always think about going places and doing things with you. I really cannot wait for you to get home and to be able to go on little weekend vacations. I mean look at the amazing thing that happened on our last vacation! ;)

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 17 Just Time

Tonight was a typical night home. Nina came over at 4:00 to play and around 6:00 Roo decided to join the fun! We had our bath time and both tucked ourselves into Mommy's bed after I managed to pay some remaining bills and do some budget balancing. Billy is arriving in town late tonight. I cannot wait to see him!

Nights like tonight are so much easier when you are home. I miss you sweetie, there is nothing but time and waiting that can fix how much I love and miss you! So here I lay, counting the moments until you're back here once again.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 16 A Thousand Pieces

Tonight was dinner with your parents and we had one of my favorite meals, chicken, rice and corn. Yum! Your Dad was at meetings all night and Liam was on his best behavior. We had a wonderful time and eventually made our way home to get the mail and settle in for the night.

I really had to go to the bathroom! I grabbed the mail and rushed to the bathroom. I'm half-way through the mail when Liam comes in holding one of the glass Christmas globes full of fake snow and water. Just as I tell Liam to carefully put it down, he does the one thing I've been dreading and drops the globe on the floor. It shatters into a thousand pieces, splatters everything with liquid and glitter, what a mess. Liam starts crying, I feel like crying and the process of cleaning up begins.

What a long night! I cannot wait for you to come home. Nights with you are so much easier, better and more beautiful.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 15 Productive Day

I had my doctors appointment today at 7:45, just a quick check in to get the information I need. Mom met me there just in time. As we were checking out, she made sure to confirm that at least two people in addition to the mama were allowed to be in the ultrasound room for the first ultrasound. This is going to be a more difficult pregnancy for her because she just isn't used to letting go a little. She was my only for Liam and that is what she is used to. We rushed back to work for 8:00 and as I was settling in I received a call from the lawyer's office telling me the papers were ready to be picked up.

At lunch, Mom and I drove to canton to sign the papers and on the way back stopped at Hot Tamale for a fun lunch together. I really do love Mexican food. I think it is my favorite closely followed by Italian food. I'm such a foodie!

On our way home I promised Liam we could put away the Thanksgiving decorations and start to get out everything Christmas. He was so excited. Sometimes, it's hilarious the things he loves doing. Mom came over for a little bit to chat and watch us sort through bin after bin of Christmas decorations. Liam wanted to touch everything and claimed that EVERYTHING was his. I do believe there are quite a few decorations stashed somewhere in Liam's room that I won't find until next summer.

I really love Christmas decorations, it puts me in such a happy reminiscent mood. I can't wait to share Christmas with you love, it will be so much fun!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 14 Picky Eater

Monday always brings Dad dinner and tonight K made roast beef with mashed potatoes. If you could have seen me years ago, I wouldn't have touched the roast beef or at least grumbled the entire time. Now, however, I love it. I love it so much I had seconds and possibly a small third helping. It's so strange how some things grow on you and others don't. How different people acquire different tastes at different points in their lives. You are lucky you met me when you did. I used to be a MUCH picky eater! I think living with Dad for a year and a half in my adulthood helped me to have a more open mind to the things others enjoy. I'm still not crazy about steak but let's not push our luck!

He gets so much joy out of holding these numbers. I still miss you love and am so grateful we have two weeks under our belt. It took a while but we're through it and I can't wait to see you soon!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 13 I Miss You Both

Sarah and I must have laid in bed until nearly 11:00am. I think that is an all time record for me. We were awake after 9, but just couldn't seem to move. After Sarah left, I eventually got my butt in gear, went shopping at Walmart and waited somewhat patiently for Liam to come home.

The days without Liam are so much harder without you here. I always feel sad without him, but I feel even worse without you too. Although I know another baby won't make up for the lost feeling I get when Liam isn't here, I think it will at least give me something to occupy my mind. I cannot wait for you to come home and my whole family to be back together once again. I really miss you!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 12 Another Birthday

Liam left early this morning and I was feeling a little lost so I headed over to Sarah and Dirck's for some decaf coffee and conversation. I stayed a little longer than I meant to but eventually headed home to pick up the house and get ready for my birthday night in with Sarah.

She came over around 6ish and we just sat there, catching up, talking (about strange things as usual) eating cake, facetiming you, opening yet more presents (a chevron red scarf and Alex and Ani bracelets that I absolutely LOVE!) We eventually fell asleep talking; it was pretty late.

Part of me is sad I didn't get to spend a birthday night with you, but the rest of me knows that I have many more waiting to be celebrated with you and I cannot wait! Who cares about this year when you have forever anyway?

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 11 A Fabulous Day

This has been a pretty fabulous week as far as birthday's are concerned. At lunch, I met Sarah at First Crush and it was just what I needed to break up the day. It was a little hard to pick something off the menu since there are soooo many things I cannot have. We both took our time and eventually picked things! Sarah got me the most adorable Christmas ornament with all of us, including the soon-to-be newest member of the family. It might be one of my favorite things! She also go me an "A" for my charm bracelet, just like the "H" I got her when she got married. We talked about everything, caught up, relaxed and just had a wonderful time.

Tonight I had dinner at your parent's house and had an absolutely wonderful time! They got me the most adorable feather earrings (I LOVE earrings), a beautiful Willow Tree (my collection is really starting to look wonderful) and my all time favorite (truffles!!) We sat and talked and had a wonderful dinner. The only thing that was missing was you. I really love you sweetie and I cannot wait to see you again! You're my everything!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 10 The Important Things in Life

Tonight Sarah and Dirck came over for the evening to have a little dinner. Because they are totally awesome, they brought Bagelry. I absolutely love Bagelry and thankfully this pregnancy hasn't kept me from eating any portion of my favorite foods. Liam had a great time and even did some pretty impressive bonding with Dirck. They spent time coloring in Liam's room. When it was time to go Liam started in with his goodbyes. Now, typically Dirck is lucky if he gets so much as a verbal greeting. Today however, he got a hug, and when he went in for the hug; Liam was insistent on a kiss as well. Dirck attempted for a kiss on the cheek and Liam wanted no part of that. My fault I guess, I only ever taught Liam to kiss on the lips, so to Dirck's lips he went.

That was definitely a first and it was a complete surprise and totally beautiful. Every day, Liam surprises me, makes me laugh, and reminds me of the important things in life. It might be strange, but now when I look at Liam, he reminds me of you! Of our time together, of how much he loves you, of how much you love him. We are both so incredibly lucky to have you in our lives!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 9 My Birfday

Today is my birthday! I usually do things pretty small. No party, not much for a celebration and just a few presents. I love love loved my purse! I emptied everything from my other purse and packed this one up right. I've already received compliments on it, thank you babe! Mom made me my favorite no-bake cookies! She even brought some into the office in a plastic baggie which I have already managed to devour.

I just can't resist myself when faced with chocolate, and especially no-bakes! Riddhi bought me some Japanese cheesecake which was delightful and tonight I have dinner at Mom's house!

I really miss you and I'm sorry you couldn't be here, I know it must be hard to miss important moments, holidays and occasions. I'm sure it'll get easier as the time goes on, either that or we'll get more used to it. Either way, please know that I miss you, you are constantly on my mind, and cannot wait to see you again soon!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 8 A Dishwasher

Today was relatively uneventful minus my pretty awesome lunch. At lunch today, Mom and I went first to Sears and then to Lowe's to look at dishwashers. We both know how much I TOTALLY HATE washing dishes! We found a few cheap models at Sears but far more at Lowe's, for a better price and with financing. Billy decided to surprise me with a dishwasher for my birthday and I couldn't be more pleased about it. He knows the way right to my heart, get me something that will make me work less... hehe.

I picked out a black one I really liked and Mom and Bry Bry stopped after work to buy it for me. Well order it I should say. It won't be in until after my birthday but at least it will be here! Billy will be coming home for Thanksgiving so I hope it's installed by then, that would be nice to show him what he and Mom and Bry Bry got me!

Soon you will be home too and you will be able to enjoy the benefits of clean dishes as well. Won't it just be grand hun?

I tried to get Liam to hold the numbers while I take pictures but he usually puts them on his face. When I tell him to put the number down lower he squats to the floor so nothing is visible. This time I tried explaining that he should put the number on his belly, that worked out alright except that then I couldn't get him to look up or we went into the whole number in front of his face all over again! So 20 pictures later I settled for this one. Oh that boy!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 7 You Are Loved

Today was a typical Monday! Back to work, and dinner at Dad's! We went to Mongolian Grill which used to be our Thursday night ritual when I lived with them before Liam was born and then more sporadically after he graced us with his presence.

I know, you know, how sick, uncomfortable and busy I was this hitch and how extremely hard it was for me to keep everything together. I tried, I mostly succeeded but here and there some things slipped through the cracks. Mom would be the first to tell you that the cleaning definitely took a nose dive. I don't know that things got any better until the day of our wedding, to be honest. When you don't feel well, life can be a struggle!

One of the other things that often went by the wayside was your blog. I wrote bits and pieces to remind myself of what I did on a particular day, but for the most part, large parts are unwritten. I promise to try and fill in the missing moments as best I can and to always post something, no matter how small. Every day, you should wake up knowing you are loved. If by chance you forget, your blog will be here to remind you... even if the words are few. Please know, you are so special to me.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 6 Dirty Dancing

Sunday mornings aren't nearly as wonderful as Saturday's but they're not that bad either. Liam and I woke up and went to Mom's for some breakfast. I love that our families live so close together and we can see them anytime we want to when we're home. I used to live so far from anyone. Although four hours doesn't seem that far, it's nothing like five minutes and it makes such a difference in the relationship I can have with them.

Liam and I went home and wasted our day away. Nina and Papa came over for dinner and thankfully Papa was able to fix up our heater just a little bit since it was leaking water all over the basement floor. That reminds me, you need to look into those chlorine tablets when you get home to clean out the pipe and make sure this doesn't happen again. I'm so thankful I have someone so resourceful and special. I don't know what I would do without you!

While Mom was over Dirty Dancing was on and Mom and I caught the end of it. We both sat there in tears. Mom cried for the loss of Patrick Swayze and I cried because honestly "No one puts Baby in the corner!" Tonight was bath night, I scrubbed Liam down as Nina and Papa left, took care of Liam's wart and we both cuddled up for some Mommy time in bed and Facetime with our favorite man.

Everything is getting that much harder. I feel sick far more often and I am extremely tired. I guess most of all I just don't feel like myself. I cannot wait for you to come home love, everything will be soooo much easier! Soon?

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 5 Easy Saturday

Today was a typical, relaxing Saturday. Last night was a little rough, so Liam and I spent most of the day just bumming around the house. We watched the Santa Clause and attempted to get into the Christmas spirit. I worked on your quilt, hand-sewing the binding. I love making something so special for you!

Billy called while Liam took a nap and he and I had a really great conversation about life and we often do! He reminded me how lucky I am to have you and how much I appreciate our relationship. It really does sometimes take a storm to appreciate the rainbow that follows. Forever and always, you will be my rainbow. You brought the sun with you when I wasn't sure I would ever see sun again.

We ran to Wal-Mart before dinner to pick up some tissues (since we have been blowing our noses like crazy and I like the soft ones with lotion). We also grabbed some bread for dinner at Dad's house. K made the most wonderful lasagna for dinner. I wish you were here tonight, I always wish you were here. I miss you already.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 4 Maybe the Grinch isn't THAT Scary

I soooooo look forward to Fridays! I really miss you hun! Instead of Donut day today, work bought Bagelry bagels. They didn't realize veggie cream cheese was a must, but the chive is pretty good as well! Mom called in sick today, I think her seminar got to her and she needed some time to recharge. Work just isn't the same without her here and she hasn't been here since Tuesday!

At lunch time, I ran to K's to pick up Liam and bring him to Mom's for the afternoon. They proceeded to fill the living room with pots, pans, bowls, spoons, spices and cereal. Liam sat in the living room "cooking" and having an absolute blast! I am positive he is going to LOVE the kitchen Santa is bringing him for Christmas. I ran home at 4:00 to collect Liam and enjoy my night with my little helper.

We ate dinner and then ventured into the living room for movie time. Liam requested The Grinch, so skeptically I put it on and prayed for the best. He sat with me the entire time and LOVED it. There were only a few moments when he pulled me closer but most of the time he just sat and watched, eyes huge! We chose to forgo the popcorn, so I gave him goldfish instead. I cannot wait for you to be home so we can have another popcorn movie night. I really miss you hunny.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 3 Happy Pappy's Birthday

Today was superbly wonderful. You and your father share so much of the same humor. I'm never quite sure if that should scare me or make me laugh. He does look rather fetching in this picture though don't you think?

Work was the same as usual, quite frustrating and rather odd. Either way, I went home at lunch to do dishes from dinner with Roo and wrap Pappy's gift. At 4:00, Liam and I headed out to your parents for a night of relaxation. When we arrived there had been a fire call for an accident. We played with Henry Monster until 6:30 when they returned.

Liam rode John Henry like a horse, attempted to ride moose, watched in awe as John Henry made farting noises with his armpit and spun in circles. I relaxed on the couch and yawned excessively.  Your Momma made the BEST meatloaf and even made special food just for me! Liam housed an entire meatloaf himself and then retired to the living room with Henry Monster to fall asleep in his lap.

She made the most delicious pies which I had to enjoy later after Liam was in bed. Liam never woke up fully. Pappy brought him to the car, he cried here and there on the way home and finally fell asleep laying on his Mommy. It was such a precious moment. I love nights like these when he wants to cuddle with me because I know someday cuddling with me will be one of the last things on his mind.

I loved our FaceTime, our discussions and your love for me.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 2 For Roo

Today was a rather long day at work. I was extremely busy attempting to finalize a fairly large bookkeeping project for Jackie. It was made better when Sarah accepted my invitation to visit for dinner. I went home at lunch to do dishes and tidy the house for company. At 4:00, Liam and I threw together Chicken Pot Pie which was sooooo yummy!

Sarah and Dirck came by around 5:00 and we all had a wonderful time. We nearly polished off the pie plate which would be quite a feat considering it was just the three of us and Liam. We had some heated, yet fun discussions, and they left in time for me to get Liam ready for bed. Since I set up some of your online accounts and paid the majority of your bills yesterday, I was able to curl up with a Pottery Barn catalogue and fall asleep.

It was a relaxing night, my first full day without you and I was ok. I miss you like crazy, I'm trying to get back into my routine but everything is good! I cannot wait to see you again and I keep praying that every day goes a littler faster than the last.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 1 I Will Miss

What a morning hun! We had a little bit of a late start due to our Dunkin' Donuts adventure but eventually got on the road, made a few stops and accidentally drove past the exit. I guess I'm flattered to know that you are so intrigued by me you completely forget where you are going!

Dropping you off is always difficult for me, but this time it was so much more bearable! I love our life, and I had the most dreamy, amazing month with you home. We were unbelievably busy, but finally your house is rented and we will be able to let just a little bit of stress go. One less thing to worry about!

I had the most amazing time! I loved our trip to Watkins Glen, all of our fun family shopping, seeing Jakey, dining out and just relaxing with the one I love!

I had a blast on our nights out, our dinner at Mama Lucia's, our Bagelry breakfasts, and all of our family dinners. I loved playing in the leaves!

 And especially watching Liam jump into the leaf pile.

I really enjoyed our Halloween costumes.

And our popcorn family movie nights.

I loved watching you play "struction" with Liam and teaching him things.

I will miss all of our silliness!

 And most definitely our cuddle sessions!

I love just being with you, learning with you and living with you. I love the gigantic rock on my finger reminding me of your love and our future wedding. I love having a little piece of you with me always! I still can't get over how perfect for each other I think we are!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!