Day 18 A Lunch Date

I went home and had lunch with you today. I LOVED it! Sometimes it's nice to have you all to myself and not have to share with Liam or anyone else. You make me laugh, you hug me, you kiss me (today like a stroke victim) and you warm my heart.

I could tell your mouth was in some serious pain, especially after you housed that plate of mac'n'cheese! ;) Even though you had far more on your schedule to accomplish, you always make me feel like I come first and I am important to you. I could get used to this.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 17 Anything and Everything

I can tell you anything...

I feel like I live in a fairy tale. You swoop me into your arms the moment I walk in the door, we tell each other stories, you treat me like a princess. Today you bought Liam hulk gloves, the Monsters, Inc. movie and you searched high and well actually apparently low for Pride and Prejudice for me. I'm sure that was a sight to see!

You always say the right thing, do the right thing, act the right way, you are amazing. Today my mother picked up Liam and when I got home we had a chance to just cuddle together in bed while dinner cooked and talk. We talked about your job, my job, religion, hopes, dreams, the future, just anything and everything that came to our minds. It was then that I realized I can tell you anything. I am not ashamed, I am not scared, I'm not even worried of how you will react because I know you love me unconditionally. *she sighs a happy sigh*

We are now officially half-way through! It feels like such a long time, but when you have forever together, it is just a drop in the bucket of life.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 16 I am Full of Food and Love

Tonight you made me dinner...

It was AMAZING!!! You are a fabulous cook! As I predicted, dinner was perfect, on time, decadent, it came with the most amazing dessert, and you made extra for my parents. Is there anything you don't do well???

Liam hoovered his meal and even snacked on my parents food. You helped me water and prune the plants, played with Liam, and at least every ten minutes looked into my eyes to make sure I knew you loved me. I hope you realize how much I love you. I think we stand a chance at forever, a very high likelihood to be honest.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 15 It's Getting Closer

I don't want you to go...

As I write this, the day you leave is getting so much closer and so much more real. Truth is, I don't want you to go! :(

I understand you have to and I know you're coming back but I can't stand the thought of being away from you! I will undoubtably bawl my eyes out and frantically look for something to occupy my mind. How is it possible to love someone so much so fast?

You're making me dinner tonight for the first time, I can't wait! Last night you surprised me with wine and liquor-filled chocolates, tonight you're keeping dessert a secret. I'm sure you will be on time, with a perfect meal, an adorable smile and exceptional charm. How do you do it?

You do realize I'm that clumsy girl, that can't wear white (lest I make a mess), has wild curly hair, forgets her keys everywhere, is always late, rarely prepared, bites her nails, never plucks her eyebrows, doesn't have time for makeup, leaves clean laundry wrinkled in baskets for days on end, hates dishes, is a moderate cooker, terrible gardener, and who hates giving back rubs right?

I do love you though... that should count for something! ;)

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 14 It's Been a While

Someone once said:

"Missing someone gets easier everyday. Because, even though it is one day further from the last time you saw each other, it is one day closer to the next time you will."

And I couldn't agree more!

I'm still here, right where you left me, waiting for you to come home...

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 13 Dunkin' Donuts

You have a way with words...

You have a way with kids, you have a way of getting your way, and you have a way with Liam. Sometimes I stare at you with complete amazement, wondering to myself, "Why didn't I think of that?"

You taught Liam to swear appropriately. You convinced him to eat his dinner when I couldn't. You taught him to kill bugs when I ran screaming. You showed him that shadows aren't scary. You taught him to kick a soccer ball and to steer his car.

You are the first person in my life that Liam called out for in the middle of the night other than myself or my mother. You are a very special person Jeffery and I am so blessed and grateful to have you in my life!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 12 Walk with Me

Our first walk...

Like so many things with you, you always leave me speechless, breathless, in awe and entirely grateful. You're the first man to try and change Liam's diaper, the first man to "want" to go for a walk with me, the first man to really care. You fixed my hot water heater, I am so soooo grateful. You help me with everything and you make me feel like a part of a team. You make me want to be a better person. You make me want to work out, want to cook dinner, want to make you happy, and want to be a better mom. You make me want to be a better me and I couldn't imagine a better you!

Happy One Month Hunny!!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 11 Oh Balls

 

You are amazing! You are amazing at so many things, but most importantly, you are amazing with Liam. Every time, I am caught off guard, and every time, I am amazed by you!

The things you teach him, the way you talk to him, the way he crawls up on you and loves you. It makes me love you soooo much more! This morning, you taught him how to throw balls at the ceiling (possibly against my desire), and you two couldn't have been more cute. Liam didn't call you JJ this morning and as the words fell from his mouth my gaze immediately went to your face. I was terrified. What would you do? What would you say? Would you correct him?

You were perfect. You were better than perfect. As usual, you were amazing!

I know in my heart, you will be the absolute best father I have ever met. Today made me happier than every day before it. I cannot wait to see what tomorrow brings.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 10 All of Those Things That Get in the Way Are Called Life

The first time I made you dinner...

I don't know what was going on in my head. Why would I choose a meal I had never made before? Why am I never on time? Why are you so fabulous when everything goes astray. Moment number 2,563 that I realized you were the one:

You're starving, you've spent over 7 hours in a car, you're tired, I'm running behind, who knows what I'm cooking and my house is half a mess. Liam is crankier than all get-out, he's screaming in the background and has been for the last 40 minutes, dinner is getting cold, I have food all over my clothes, baby snot on my shoulder. We finish eating, dinner was ok, I may or may not have dropped the pot of sauce on the way to the sink splattering sauce all over the kitchen. I finish dishes and walk into the living room expecting you to have your running shoes on for a mad dash to the door and...

There you are, sitting on the couch, Liam on your lap, reading him the new book you bought him. There literally aren't words and as I write this there are uncontrollable tears leaking from my eyes. How do you do it? I am the luckiest person in the world and you have no idea how completely special you are! Thank you!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 9 Some Call Him JJ

Our first "I love you!"

You're my Jeffery, my hunny, my babes, my lover, my friend, my man and sometimes.. my JJ. I let myself love, I open myself up, I try to trust and although it's difficult, I do it anyway. It was never difficult with you. It was never debatable or uncertain. I don't know the exact moment I realized it was real, but since that moment, I've never looked back. I can't imagine you as anything less than everything to me. I ask Sarah daily if you're real, I ask her if you'll break my heart, and I ask her if I'm crazy. She's never doubted you from day one and it still amazes me. Are you really that perfect for me? I think so... Sarah and I's conversation from today:

She always has the best advice!

"For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul." - Judy Garland

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 8 Because You're Mine

You came back...

I woke up next to you this morning, it was your first day back from vacation, our first night and my first morning with you back by my side. I woke up at least 20 times this morning, many from my alarm clock ;) but some just to see you still there next to me. I love waking up next to you. I love that look in your eyes. I love your smile, your charm and your voice. Last night I realized you miss me too, you love me too, you need me too. Last night, with you right beside me, I missed you more than any day so far. I miss you always...

“That’s the worst way to miss somebody. When they’re right beside you and you miss them anyway.” -Pittacus Lore

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 7 It's Been a Week

It's been a week baby, and I'm still here. I'm not going anywhere and I wouldn't trade one moment for the world. From the day I met you, I can't stop thinking about our future together and how completely happy and excited you make me. You have this way of reminding me every day how special life is and how lucky we are to have found each other.

"In all the world, there is no heart for me like yours. In all the world, there is no love for you like mine." -Maya Angelou

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 6 I'll Never Get Used to This

The first time you left...

I told myself it was only a week, just a little while, a small vacation, I barely knew you. I told myself you'd be home soon, to just be patient, not to worry. I told myself whatever little tid bit I could think of to make me feel better, but honestly... I missed you like CRAZY! I missed your kisses, I missed your eyes, I missed those small fem hands! ;) Mostly, I missed the sound of your voice, how tender you hold me, how you kiss my forehead and look at me like you don't want to be anywhere else on earth (and neither do I)!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 5 and You're Always on my Mind

The first time you stayed the night...

You tried to sneak out on me!!! ;) I love waking up next to you, kissing you, seeing that first morning smile. I love when that first smile is mine and mine alone. I cherish every moment we spend together, I couldn't imagine a more perfect man to share my life with!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 4 I Want More

I want it all...

I want to laugh more with you, I want to cook (however moderately I do so) for you, I want to watch movies with you, I want to sleep next to you, I want to wake up in your arms. I want to hike with you, work out with you, play outside with you, go boating with you. I want to swim with you, tell you terribly cheesy jokes, surprise you, dance with you, drink with you, kiss you, hug you, tickle you. I want it all and I want to be with you forever!

Most of the above I cannot do until you return, so I've opted to tell you terrible jokes!

Why did the motorcycle stop moving??
...
Because it was two-tired!!!! HAHAHAHAHA


What's the difference between roast beef and pea soup?
...
Anyone can roast beef! :)


What do you call a person who doesn't fart in public?
...
A Private tutor!! ;)

Ok I'm done... but Babe did you hear the one about the pizza? Nevermind, it was too CHEESY!!! lol

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 3 What You Mean to Me

Our first date...

I could not have been more excited. I can tell you want so bad to say the right thing and make me happy. So please know one thing; you already always do! See, you could sit there and stare at me all night, holding me, not saying one word and I would feel completely content.

I wanted to be so close to you this night, if it wasn't dorky I would have sat on the same side of the booth. Would you ever do that? Although I love looking into your eyes, seeing your smile, watching you ponder your next sentence; I love even more being so close to you. I miss you...

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 2 Still Missing You

Our first kiss...

I was SOOooOOo nervous! Looking back something always felt different about you, something always felt right, easy, beautiful. You held me close to you and I melted. You have the most gentle eyes, I get lost in them sometimes. You look at me and my stomach does a backflip. The term "getting butterflies" now has a whole new meaning, I can't wait to explore life with you.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 1 of the Rest of our Lives

Prince Charming... I can't imagine the rest of my life without you...

It's only been a few weeks and I know in my heart you are here to stay. Today is the first day without you and although I'm sure it hurts more than words. I know you'll be coming home soon, and when you do, I'll be here waiting for you!

I have already written a post for every day you're gone. It somehow made it easier knowing our future had already been written, knowing the day would come when you would come home to me.

(I wrote this post days ago and just reread it as I went to post it for you today. So much has happened since I wrote this and I had no idea my love for you would grow as much as it did. I can't wait to see you again babes, you have my heart in your hands, please be careful. PS you'll love the posts that are to come!)

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!