Mother came over when Liam was dropped off today and she immediately asked him about you. "Where's JJ?" she asked.
"At work." Liam replied.
"At work?" Mom asked.
"On a ship, in the water." He says.
Mom looks at me astounded. I've never told him that, I don't know where he learned that but he couldn't be more right. We went inside and drank JJ's juice, inquired about JJ's red sneakers, played with JJ's T-shirts and missed JJ, terribly.
I loved FaceTiming with you. I loved seeing you, hearing your voice, feeling that much closer to you. I can't imagine what tomorrow will be like knowing that I can't see you and won't see you. My eyes have been like waterworks lately, out of control! I have so much love and emotions for you. As I went for a walk today, you were the only thing that occupied my thoughts. I couldn't for one moment forget about you, mostly because I can't for one moment think about anything else other than you.
I worry about you flying. I know how safe it is, I know you do it all the time, and I know you'll be ok; but I still can't help but worry. You've sent me lots of pictures and I couldn't be more happy about it. I love seeing your face if only in photos and I don't know what I will do tomorrow morning when I wake up to an empty bed. I'm thinking I may spray the pillows on your side of the bed with cologne. You may need to buy more when you return. ;) I suppose I'll go lay in bed and think about you until you write me when you land and let me know you've arrived safely and without incident. (Sorry I was asleep when you wrote.)
You make all of the wrong paths before you completely worth the journey, because without them I wouldn't know to appreciate you, and you deserve so much more than even that...
And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!
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