Day 33 Hehe You're Here

I woke up today feeling revived and hopeful. I hung a few more pictures of Liam in the living room and reminded myself to have faith you would come home to me today, I couldn't wait another day. The trip down to Syracuse to get you flew by as I thought about everything I wanted to say to you and every emotion flooded out that had been waiting what seemed like years inside me.

Suddenly I realized... I was scared, nervous, excited, happy, impatient and hopeful all at once. It is a strange feeling to miss someone you have only known for such a short while so incredibly much. Seeing you again was both unfamiliar and comfortable. I think I needed to fall into your arms to finally believe it was all ok again, to remember what we had and to remind myself you were my Jeffery, you hadn't changed and you came back for me. Although I always knew you would come back, there was a small piece that needed just a little reassurance and reaffirmation to believe it was all going to be ok.

I thank God every day for you...

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 32 Stupid Helicopter

Today was terrible! Lol, thankfully I didn't write this as it happened because I have a feeling it would not have been very fun to read. Right now, you are here, in my arms, so writing this is far more pleasant.

I woke up this morning bright and early, did some more cleaning, snuck home at lunch to put together Sarah's Bridal Shower and Bachelorette Party albums and waited not so patiently for any news about your departure. And I waited, and I waited and I pouted and waited some more.

The helicopter came and broke down, the other ones were coming, then they weren't. You refused to buy a plane ticket, then you did, and missed it. You were coming home, then you weren't, then you weren't sure, then you definitely weren't! Ugh, such an emotional roller coaster. At some point, I gave in to the fact that you would not be coming home today and I tried to make the best of it. I put together a desk I had purchased, I hung pictures throughout the living room and I waited more patiently for you to come home.

We FaceTimed, I missed you and I tried to focus on all of the wonderful things we would do together when you returned.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 31 I'm a Slacker

These last three remaining posts were written well after you returned home and directly before you left for work again. I was so busy cleaning and preparing our house for you that I just didn't find the time. I was VERY excited to see you! Although you've hopefully returned home to me by this point, I figured I'd write them anyway, because I know much you look forward to your 5am wakeup blog post.

I spent my 31st day without you doing a massive amount of cleaning. I assembled a shelf for my books, I cleaned the kitchen, I played with Liam, FaceTimed with your momma and was utterly ecstatic that you were coming home tomorrow... I hate when you're gone but love this feeling of excitement knowing I will see you in just a few short hours!

Looking back now, preparing for you to leave again I get a little twinge of happiness knowing I will feel like this again in a month. When we're together I feel like nothing could possibly ever make me that happy again!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 30 Consuming Love

Today is such an exciting day, I feel like seeing you is only moments away and I absolutely cannot contain how happy I am. I feel like I can't possibly concentrate on work right now when the only thing on my mind is seeing you!

Tonight we had dinner with Dad, we went to the Mongolian Grill! Their food is always so good but I can never quite decide if it is worth the bloat I get from eating it. I have given up on walking today, there is sooooo much to do. I woke up this morning and finished some quilting and began to organize some of my quilting things as I'm sure I won't have much time for that while you are here. I can't imagine not spending every moment right there with you!

"I am someone who is looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-eachother love." -SATC

I've found it!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 29 A Day with my Little Man

Today was a day with Liam and I couldn't have been more happy about it. I woke up SUPER early this morning, a little after 4am and headed into the living room to quilt. I quilted ALL morning, picked up around the house and played with Liam. We hug and kiss and have an absolute blast, Liam likes to help with everything!

We took a break mid-day, I took Liam to McDonalds for a cheeseburger and fries, he's positive that is the best treat EVER! We brought his meal to Nina's house, sat under the tree, had another picnic and played on the swing. As he started to close his eyes I figured it was time to head home before he succumbed to sleep.

We quickly cleaned out the shed, organized, swept and made a pile for the dump. I had been meaning to do this for a long time, it needed it! We barely made it inside for a nap, angry, tired, cranky Liam had already replaced my not-quite-sweet but always adorable and charming child. An hour into his nap one of our Favortie people stopped by! ROO!

Before long Liam was up, terrorizing her and being his typical self, after he demanded more food of course. She read him stories and occupied his time just long enough to allow me a shower and some one-on-one time with the laundry. There are days that finding time for the even the simplest things is difficult, but you will be home soon and all will be right once again!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 28 A Picnic

This morning I woke up bright and early, fed the boys, got everyone dressed, cleaned and headed outdoors for a relatively useless project. This entire time you have been gone, my mower has NOT been my friend. The grass was still relatively wet from the morning dew and so completely long in some places! I was able to struggle through the front yard, side yard and immediate backyard before I finally gave up. My right hand was completely green and brown from constantly emptying the grass removal area. I jumped in the shower, brought Matthew home and headed out to go hiking with Liam and the Furgisons!

We went to Lampsons Falls and had an absolute blast. I pulled Liam in the wagon and we packed a small picnic. Liam was very excited for the food and was sooooo well behaved! We had an excellent time and Liam fell asleep on the ride home. It was an absolutely wonderful day, aside from the failed mowing attempt, it was missing nothing but YOU! I miss you!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 27 My Last Weekend Alone

Fridays are always good days because I know I have the weekend ahead of me. Every day, at lunch or when I get home, I clean, organize and prepare for you to get here. It's like that nesting stage right before birth during pregnancy (sorry that was the only way I could think to describe it.) Either way I'm ecstatic and counting down the days.

Today, Mom and I had a really fabulous lunch at Maxfields. I had my favorite Southwest Chicken Salad and so did she. Sometimes life gets so crazy and overwhelming, it's nice to sit down and reflect on all of my blessings and listen to someone else tell me about theirs.

When I got out of work, I went to Dad's and picked up Liam and Matthew. Friday night sleepovers use to be a ritual at my house but life got a little bit too crazy and those nights became few and far between. I really do miss the time with Matthew and he is such a help with Liam. Although they spend most of the time arguing, fighting over toys and crying, they eventually get along and make my life just a little bit easier. At some point, Liam needs a little brother to show him exactly what a little rugrat he is! I miss you...

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!