Day 33 Today You're Coming Home

When in actuality today is the day you left me for work, I know that when you read this you will be coming home to me and that gives me just a little bit of peace. I cannot wait until you get here and hold me in your arms. I don't think I've ever yearned more for a hug from another person but I cannot imagine my life without you in it. I miss your smile Jeffery, I miss your touch, I miss you soooo much!

"Let us always meet each other with smile, for the smile is the beginning of love." -Mother Teresa
I can't wait to see that smile.

And when you're here, laying next to me, lean over, give me a kiss and whisper the sweetest nothing you can think of...

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 32 A Few Pictures for You

I pulled out of your driveway with my eyes gushing tears and I drove straight to Sarah's. There was no one in the world that was going to make me feel better other than her. She didn't try to tell me it would be ok or that she understood. She just let me cry, listened to me tell her about you and smiled.

She listened to me go on about how fabulous you are for over an hour and then she helped me take 33 pictures. She didn't complain once and she made me have a blast. I'm so lucky to have her and I'm that much more lucky to have you too! It's rare that someone finds their soul mate in life and even more rare that they find two. I love you both more than words!

"If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you." -A. A. Milne

P.S. Day 33 is your last post for a month, so savor it... although you probably won't miss them because you'll have something even better... ME!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 31 I Just Couldn't Leave

It doesn't matter how hard I tried to put that car in reverse, how hard I tried not to cry, how hard I focused on everything else in life, I couldn't bring myself to do it. I had to make you walk away, I couldn't be the one to leave. You always tell me you love me so much it hurts and I completely understand what you are talking about because I feel the same way.

"I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love." -Mother Teresa

I love you so much it hurts and in the end I find myself only wanting more...

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 30 A Difficult Morning

All morning I tried not to think about the fact that you would be leaving me in a few hours. I focused on spending every moment completely happy and in love! I savored the fact that I was able to wake up next to you for one final morning. 

I loved just cuddling in bed, talking, looking through Facebook, going through your old T-shirts and making plans for when you return. I cannot wait for you to come home. It will be so absolutely wonderful! I had such a hard time looking in your eyes and not crying...

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 29 A Walk Home

Last night we walked home and I'm positive I've never had a more perfect walk with anyone. I swear it must have taken us forever but I wouldn't take back one second for anything!

We talked about everything, told each other secrets and enjoyed every moment. We kissed every 100 steps and sometimes only made it 20 feet in 5 minutes. I felt so safe with you and so special. I will confess I was sad when we reached the house. I wanted to do it all over again...

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 28 Dinner with You and Your Parents

Last night we had dinner with your parents and I can't say I've ever had more fun! I already feel like a part of your family. I loved sitting at dinner with you, being close to you all night, having you hold me, rub my back, kiss me and call me yours. I was so proud to be near you. I had so much fun in conversation with your parents, margaritas at Cantina, drinks at Maxfields and hanging out in the street. I loved meeting your friends and just relaxing with you.

I know this will be one of those special moments I remember for the month you are gone. A moment perfectly happy, not a care in the world, surrounded by someone I love. I love how you take care of me and make me feel so incredibly special. Everything last night was perfect! Sarah always reminds me of the quote, "Friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest... It's about who came, and never left your side." This quote reminds me of you, and like her, I can tell you're the staying kind!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 27 Can You Please Come Home Soon

I can't imagine a night without you, let alone an entire month. This will be one of the most difficult things EVER. Last night, you and I had the best conversation. We talked about us, and you, and me. We were more honest with each other than we've ever been and we let it all out.

I feel like I could tell you anything and I promise there is nothing you could say or will say to me that would make me love you any less! I look forward to so many more nights together, so many more conversations and so much more you.

“When a man is that special, you know it sooner than you think possible. You recognize it instinctively, and you're certain that no matter what happens, there will never be another one like him.”  -Nicholas Sparks

And I know without a doubt that, that one, is YOU!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!