Day 3 Happy Pappy's Birthday

Today was superbly wonderful. You and your father share so much of the same humor. I'm never quite sure if that should scare me or make me laugh. He does look rather fetching in this picture though don't you think?

Work was the same as usual, quite frustrating and rather odd. Either way, I went home at lunch to do dishes from dinner with Roo and wrap Pappy's gift. At 4:00, Liam and I headed out to your parents for a night of relaxation. When we arrived there had been a fire call for an accident. We played with Henry Monster until 6:30 when they returned.

Liam rode John Henry like a horse, attempted to ride moose, watched in awe as John Henry made farting noises with his armpit and spun in circles. I relaxed on the couch and yawned excessively.  Your Momma made the BEST meatloaf and even made special food just for me! Liam housed an entire meatloaf himself and then retired to the living room with Henry Monster to fall asleep in his lap.

She made the most delicious pies which I had to enjoy later after Liam was in bed. Liam never woke up fully. Pappy brought him to the car, he cried here and there on the way home and finally fell asleep laying on his Mommy. It was such a precious moment. I love nights like these when he wants to cuddle with me because I know someday cuddling with me will be one of the last things on his mind.

I loved our FaceTime, our discussions and your love for me.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 2 For Roo

Today was a rather long day at work. I was extremely busy attempting to finalize a fairly large bookkeeping project for Jackie. It was made better when Sarah accepted my invitation to visit for dinner. I went home at lunch to do dishes and tidy the house for company. At 4:00, Liam and I threw together Chicken Pot Pie which was sooooo yummy!

Sarah and Dirck came by around 5:00 and we all had a wonderful time. We nearly polished off the pie plate which would be quite a feat considering it was just the three of us and Liam. We had some heated, yet fun discussions, and they left in time for me to get Liam ready for bed. Since I set up some of your online accounts and paid the majority of your bills yesterday, I was able to curl up with a Pottery Barn catalogue and fall asleep.

It was a relaxing night, my first full day without you and I was ok. I miss you like crazy, I'm trying to get back into my routine but everything is good! I cannot wait to see you again and I keep praying that every day goes a littler faster than the last.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 1 I Will Miss

What a morning hun! We had a little bit of a late start due to our Dunkin' Donuts adventure but eventually got on the road, made a few stops and accidentally drove past the exit. I guess I'm flattered to know that you are so intrigued by me you completely forget where you are going!

Dropping you off is always difficult for me, but this time it was so much more bearable! I love our life, and I had the most dreamy, amazing month with you home. We were unbelievably busy, but finally your house is rented and we will be able to let just a little bit of stress go. One less thing to worry about!

I had the most amazing time! I loved our trip to Watkins Glen, all of our fun family shopping, seeing Jakey, dining out and just relaxing with the one I love!

I had a blast on our nights out, our dinner at Mama Lucia's, our Bagelry breakfasts, and all of our family dinners. I loved playing in the leaves!

 And especially watching Liam jump into the leaf pile.

I really enjoyed our Halloween costumes.

And our popcorn family movie nights.

I loved watching you play "struction" with Liam and teaching him things.

I will miss all of our silliness!

 And most definitely our cuddle sessions!

I love just being with you, learning with you and living with you. I love the gigantic rock on my finger reminding me of your love and our future wedding. I love having a little piece of you with me always! I still can't get over how perfect for each other I think we are!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 30 Are You Coming Home?

There were times when we weren't quite sure if you would be here today, but this time was far better than last. I can deal with you stuck in NYC; but on a boat, in the ocean with a down helicopter... that is not for me. I actually had one of the most pleasant days. I stopped in Watertown for Moe's and some Joann's shopping. I stopped in Pulaski at Dunkin for a donut and coffee and was even complimented on my pleasant disposition.

I sat in the parking lot and relaxed, sipped my coffee, and basked in the sunlight getting ever more excited for your arrival. Picking you up this time was so much more intimate for me. I couldn't wait to pull the car up the curb and I tried to peak around the corner just slightly as I drove into the airport pickup.

This has been a long month but we have so much to look forward to; today, tomorrow, this month, forever, you are my heart.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 29 More Clothes than Most Men

Work today remained the same and still just as frustrating. I had another meeting with a partner and tried to push through the remainder of my day. I worked through lunch in anticipation of dinner tonight with our Roo. Liam fell asleep in the car on the way home and Sarah and I caught up on the couch while he took a nap. It is so nice to sit on the couch and just download, everyone needs that sometimes.

When Liam woke up from his nap we headed to Mama Lucia's for dinner. Liam was extremely loud, and at Mama's it didn't matter. Roo and I shared a bottle of Lambrusco to laugh off his craziness. We shared Chicken Parm, Spaghetti and Pizza. Liam got spaghetti sauce all over the place and we had a wonderful time.

I went home to do a final pickup of the house, put away the laundry, clean up Liam's room, organize the living room and stash your clothing wherever I could find, jeeze you have a lot of clothes babe, see you soon!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 28 Dad's Night

Today is Monday, and as per usual Mondays are so hard. I cannot wait for the day when I can stay home with all of our terrors and clean this house that lately has slipped between the cracks. After work, I went to Dad's for dinner. We had tilapia, egg noodles, and cream of corn. I topped this off with a blue moon rather than my typical glass of wine, I was craving a beer.

We talked a lot at dinner, we talked about you and how excited I was for you to come home. I cannot wait! I ran to Mom's on the way home to check on Salem and let him out with Mom gone.

Tonight in my Facetime with you we discussed a topic I am not rather fond of. We talked about guns. It is not that I don't like them, want to limit them, or think we could live without them. The problem I think I have, relates to the shear power of a firearm, the distance between you and the target and the long list of horror stories involving guns. While the vast majority of gun owners remain fine, I sometimes question the exception and constantly pray that it is never me. Although I recognize, at some point, Liam will likely own and operate a gun, the mere thought scares me. I suppose the old adage holds true:

"We all fear what we do not understand." -Dan Brown

Although I hope to someday (possibly) understand them a little better, I'm still not sure I will ever be comfortable with them or welcome them with open arms. I generally in life do not like to take unnecessary risks and therefore this will be something I struggle with most of my life as I do with dogs.

Although these conversations are sometimes hard to have, I think they are ultimately important to a successful healthy relationship, and that is what I want.

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!

Day 27 Where Do the Days Go?

Sunday mornings, no child to wake me up, you think I would be able to sleep-in right? Nope, at least Mom didn't think so! ;) I got my butt out of bed, and headed out to Dad's house  to check on it since he wouldn't be home until later today. I stopped in to Biglots to pick out a scarecrow and like my mother; filled a cart with fall decorations I wanted and then proceeded to put every thing back on the shelves because I didn't "need" it. I did however get the scarecrow and ran home to put it in the ground and complete my outdoor fall decor. On the way home, I stopped at Dunkin Donuts for an iced latte and started my afternoon of crafting and cleaning.

Liam was dropped off at three and then we were back out to your parents' house to say goodbye to Jacob, visit and drop off your mother's pillow. Your Momma made the best taco salad and I spent the rest of the evening helping Henry Monster with his homework. Boy, it has been a LONG time since I did math like that. I was able to help him with all of the questions except one which you so graciously helped him with. I cannot wait until we can help our children, I cannot wait to have children with you Jeffery. True to form, on the way home we stopped at Mom's to visit with her and Papa before their trip to Hawaii. Today just flew right by. I miss you!

And Jeffery, I Blue Heart love you!